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Something is not right. If any of you know what this is please contact me as I have never felt this way before. I seem to be having physical sensations that mimic partly, the rocking motion of the sea, and sometimes like I have fallen in quicksand. I frolic along for a few days feeling unaware of anything askew and then suddenly I am on the floor heaving up tears from my bowels. Do you feel this way?

Some say I am suffering from PTSS and others say the recent events triggered old PTSS and that I am simply - note the word 'simply'- experiencing the things I never experienced before. Metaphor: I was in a car wreck in 1972 and my spine and legs were smashed. I suffered brain damage and was left a vegetable; today I looked down and noticed the wheelchair and my assigned companion; yesterday I realized that all those that I remember from back in '72 are all dead or left to go on with lives without me. I am a metaphor for death. I am a pool of liquid. I can not staunch the flow